Motivation, ahoy!

Thankfully, I've been found with motivation and creativeness again. Yes, I will admit I felt that I had lost it. So glad to still have it.

Life is going well in other aspects too. Work is still going. I've been working every other day for the last week.

Travis and I celebrated our 30 month anniversary last month. For some reason, I kept saying it was our 18 month. Completely just left out a year. Not sure why. Lol

Tonight, we are sitting at home. I'm watching the Screen Actors Guild Awards. Well, I am watching them and working on my brochure. Travis is working on his walk cycle for a contest ending on the 30th, which is our next anniversary. :)

I suppose I will keep this short and sweet. Thank you all for reading!



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Hoping...

You know that feeling you get when you've gotten too much sleep and you just end up going back to sleep?

Yea... that's kind of how it's been all day for me. We went to bed relatively early... around midnight. It was a great night of sleep... that lasted until about 9-9:30. A sufficient amount of sleep, really. However, it took more will power than I care to admit to actually, physically get myself out of bed. Why? No idea. And I've felt like I could fall back asleep so easily at any moment. No motivation, no will to do anything, nothing.

Just really annoyed. I have so much that I could be doing, but my mind won't see reason. I'm hoping that the little trip to Iowa next weekend will be a nice relief. Hoping...

Catch Up Post!

It was a kind of full weekend... so here's the 3 pictures and thanks that I missed.

Day 2: What You Wore Today

Day 3: Clouds

Day 4: Something Green

Day 5: From A High Angle

Day 6: From A Low Angle

Day 7: Fruit

Day 8: A Bad Habit

Day 9: Someone You Love

November 2: Today, I am thankful for Travis. He balances me. He's encouraging and strong. For the last 2+ years of my life, he's been one of the best parts of it and has helped me to grow as a person. I love him.

November 3: My friends are my reason for thanks today. Old and new, they all are family to me. Great memories and good times ahead. 

November 4: I am so thankful to have a roof over my head. When I think of all those who aren't sure where they will lay their head from night to night, it makes me really appreciate where I live.

November 5: I am thankful for tea. Nice, hot tea. It's been helping to break up the congestion in my head, and now in my chest.

November 6: My jobs. They provide the income that I need to survive. The people I work with are awesome and I am very grateful to have a full time position, as well as part time position at two completely different types of places.

November 7: My family is awesome. Immediate family, extended family, and all the ones in-between. I know that they are there for me, even if I don't have constant contact with them.

November 8: I am extremely thankful for the talents I've developed over the years. My artistic abilities are always growing and I can't wait to see where they're going to take me!

November 9: Days off. Period.

Halloween & Other Spooky Things

So.... I've finally gotten it all put together!

Victorian Bride

First I was calling it a "Goth Bride", but the further I got into it and getting each of the accessories, it turned Victorian and I love it!

That's the biggest news as of late.... Other than that, I've been pretty busy. Staying caught up on edits, working at WalMart and Aero, and still trying to have a life. 

This weekend is one that I'll get quite a bit done. I only work at WalMart tomorrow and Saturday from 7 to 4 and then I have Sunday off. Going to use the time to get some things straightened out at home, edit some pictures, finish up some signs, and clean up my computer. Sadly, Travis is gone the whole weekend. He's at Nanocon all weekend. Great time for him. It's been a while since he had a weekend off. Still sad that he can't go to the Annual Halloween Party at Jess & Tiller's this year... 

Anyway..... I probably should get going, but I'll leave with a couple of things. 

First, I've started up a 30 Day Photo Challenge.

Day 1: Self-Portrait

Thought it was a good month to do it since November has 30 days. Also, I figured I'll blog my thanks each day. Even if it ends up being just the photo challenge and my thanks that I post, I'll try posting every day this month. So...

November 1: I am thankful for my mother. Simply put, without her I would not be here. Literally. Thank you, Mom. For everything.

A rarity.

*sigh*

A day off.

And it's beautiful out today! Doors are open, fresh air coming in. I've been cleaning up, doing laundry, working on a few projects, and will be doing more edits later. Oh yea, and another shoot today! Busy day, but a great day nonetheless.

Trying to put together some Christmas presents... Yes, more crafty ones, but I don't think that I could do it any other way. Not only is it cheaper, but it's also more personal and I love it.

Still trying to work out organization things around the apartment... Got a new make-up organizer which is working out fabulously. Still need something else for my art shelf... I'm acquiring quite a few glass jars and i almost want another shelf for my shelves... Maybe just use one of those "add-a-shelf" things... I don't know for sure. Just know that I need something. *brainstorms*

What else?

Hm... I guess I better get back to it. ^_^



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Updates and such.

Been busy, busy, busy lately... Between working at Walmart, working at Aero, and doing some photos for MelJean Designs (To see blog, click here!), I've barely had time for anything else! Including blogging.

So here it goes...

Work, at both places, is going well. Just kind of in a groove of going in, getting done what needs to get done, and going home. Nothing too spectacular happens. We are closing in on Christmas rather quickly... or so says Walmart... UGH! The "Christmas Shop" is open already. Layaway is up and running "earlier than ever" as the commercials put it. Lame. Sauce. All of that makes me want to boycott... Hardcore.

Had last weekend off, however, and Travis and I went to a wedding for one of his high school buddies, Wyatt. It was a fun time! Met Wyatt and Bill, both friends of Travis' from high school. Bill had a wife and kid. The baby was ADORABLE! His name is Kirby and he knows how to fist bump! Only 18 months old, too. So cute! Wyatt and Bill actually ended up coming over to the apartment Friday night to hang out. We played P & A and bullshitted all night. Funniest part? The two of them, mostly Wyatt though, kept asking Travis when he was getting married. They bugged him enough that he ended up saying, "I would very much like to when the time is right." ^_^ That made me feel better and put my mind a little as ease just to hear him say it out loud... and to his friends even! Hope isn't gone. :)

That's about it for this one. Thanks for tuning in!




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.... a little lost.

Today isn't the greatest day. It's one of those contemplative kind of days.

Why am I where I am?
Why am I doing what I'm doing?
Where should I be?
What's wrong with me?

Just too many thoughts for one mind. I don't have the motivation to do anything creative which is very depressing. So... I'm stuck in this downward spiral.... Just lost. And I hate being in this rut. I really do. I just don't know what needs to be done to get out of it.

I have my paints, cameras, pencils... everything all around me... yet nothing. No spark. Just a big block.

I know it's getting really bad because Travis doesn't even know what to do... I try to talk things out and I don't have the words. I don't know what to tell him or how to tell him. I'm worried that if I keep this up much longer, it'll wear down on him too much. Hell, I'm wearing down on myself too much.

If there were ever a time that I would reach out for help... It'd be now. I'm not asking for pity... absolutely not. Just encouragement. Support. I don't know what else to do...

Reverted... :(

Alright... so the planner and such... thing. Yea, didn't work. Well, that's not completely true. It worked for about..... 2 days.

*sigh* Sooooo... I'm going to try again with this week. Hopefully.


Anyway..... What else? Hm... Well, been thinking... And I am pretty sure I'm going to end up putting in my "two weeks" at Things Remembered. I love what I do there, but I am not getting any hours. So... I'm meeting with someone at another store tomorrow and see what happens. Yep, I'll be all dressed up tomorrow. Make-up and all. I wonder if I still know how to apply it... :P

Tried Kung Fu last night. Feeling it today. It wasn't bad at all! It was actually kind of fun. I just need to not overthink it. (As with everything in my life.....) Might actually start going every week. :)

Alrighty, well... I think I'm gonna call it a night! Will update you with what happens tomorrow. :D




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Newfound Motivation

Okay, so I'm not completely back into the painting/drawing aspect.... However, I'm starting to be creative more.

Example: I've looked at Pinterest for a while now and came across a "Calendar Journal" project. You take notecards, cut them in half, (enough for a year) and put the month and day on each one. Then, for each year, you write down something you did that day. Imagine what that'd be like too look back on after 5 years? Even if the events are minuscule, that'd be awesome to remember!

In a lot of ways, I almost feel like I'm trying to anticipate losing my memory... :S Is that sad? Or weird? Okay, most definitely weird. lol

ANNNNNYYYYWAYYY..... I've submitted an entry into P!nk's Creative Invite on Talenthouse! *(Click here to see it!)* As of 11 pm, July 8, I was #58 of an unknown amount of entries with 58 votes! Too funny! That is all thanks to my wonderful friends and family for supporting me!

*end of plug*

Hm... sooo.... what haven't I written about lately? *saves and checks*

Ah ha! Travis and my 2 year anniversary date went really well! ^_^ First, he came home from work and knocked on the door. I wasn't sure why he had to knock until I answered the door. There, standing at the apartment door, was Travis with 2 roses. <3 Smooches, hugs, etc. We got ready and headed downtown. We parked by the Pavillion and walked down the street to Minerva's. It just so happened that the Auto Show was going at the same time. It was okay though. It made the walk to and from the car interesting. (Plus, we ended up with 2 bags of kettle corn to take home!) We went to the restaurant and waited just a few minutes. It was funny though... as we stood there, we had probably 3 different groups of people cut in front of us to get tables -- without reservations. Now, we're aware of why people with reservations get snotty at those who don't. So... after that, we were seated. :D (Which is funny... because I'm pretty sure I remember putting "not next to the kitchen" in the special requests box when we were making the reservations, and yet.. we sat right next to the door way to the kitchen. Hm.) Besides the point. We sit down, order our drinks, and grab our first trip to the salad bar. When we get back to our table, we decide to open gifts before diving into our food. He loved his pocket watch! My new bead was beautiful, as well as the card. They almost matched, actually. :D The bead had 2 hearts connected by a gem at the bottoms of each heart. Liked it. Loved it! By the time we finished that, our food had arrived. We chatted and ate. He ordered Buffalo Ravioli and I ordered Crab-Crusted Salmon. Soooo delicious! When we were done, we took a jaunt around the Auto Show, just because. :) We still had time to spare so we ended up going to Coldstone for dessert. In true Travis-fashion, as soon as we sat down he pulled out a second gift. It was another bead! This time it was an Open Heart bead from Kay's. (For those that aren't familiar, the Open Heart design has 2 hearts combined into one shape.) Completely surprised! Loved, loved, loved it! After that, we went to the movie, Brave. Amazing movie. It was great! And the rest of the night was just as amazing. <3 All in all, our two year anniversary was perfect. 


So... I've decided... sort of... that I need to start working out. I've been talking with Travis about setting up a weekly schedule working around his work schedule and starting to think that I need to do that too. Like, designating a specific hobby/event per day and work in an hour or two of specified event around work. Maybe I can work that out tomorrow. :D

Speaking of, I have all day tomorrow off! ^_^ Spending the bulk of it with Britney! Sooo excited! :D Know we're going to the mall... other than that, I have no idea what we'll do. :P



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Short check in!

Hey there!

It's been just a little while... I almost think I'm out of practice... Let's see

Work is going well. I've had a few days that I've second-guessed accepting the promotion, but it's still going well. :) Still makes the day go by faster than when I was on the floor.

Now, one thing that I'm super excited about it this Friday. Travis and I are coming up on our 2 year anniversary on Saturday! We're going out on Friday night to celebrate. We're going to somewhere new for supper (Minerva's) and going to a movie (Brave.. I think). Just realizing that we've been together for that long is awesome! I'm so happy! I really hope he likes what I got him, which I will reveal later. I'm so anxious to find out what he got me! :S Omg!

Okay, checklist. New date shirt = check. New nails = check. Now... I wanted to have my hair done again by Friday, but I'm not sure if that'll happen... :S Either way, I'm excited! ^_^